It's a strange feeling to start new beginnings. You may feel fear, or excitement or joy or even relief. You may feel one of those or all of those feeling all at once. Since September my life has been full of new beginnings and changes. Some changes have been wonderful and some a struggle, but all of those changes have brought me to today.
Yesterday was a huge and amazing change in my life. A fresh start, a clean slate. My relationship with Jesus has been growing over the years. I don't have any one date that I can definitively say I accepted Jesus Christ and became a believer, but I can say that on January 31, 2014 I was baptized in his name and was washed clean and accepted into his arms. It was an amazing experience and the feeling for me isn't something I can completely put into words. But I took all my worries , fears, past failings and put it all into Jesus' hands and he lifted them off my shoulders making my load easier to bear. It was one of the best decisions I've ever made.
I know the path is long and filled with curves and rocks and I will come upon trials and temptations, and I know as a human I am a sinner, but with Jesus as my savior I am saved and with God in my corner everything will be fine. I will work to make him proud and serve. Nothing is impossible with God.
***10 February 2014***
In the last several days since my baptism I find my faith is renewed and strong. I am so thankful for the many blessings I've received and I look forward to the future and leave behind my past failures. I've faced fears and worries and I've asked for advice in dealing with decisions I have to make on a daily basis. My life is forever changed and I am happy and have no regrets in life. Every trial and bump in the road brings a lesson, and right now I'm learning patience. Patience is something I've been struggling with, and knowing everything happens in good time, this is my current lesson. Having patience with my own healing or having patience with those who don't understand my illness, and having patience with people who are making decisions about my future and leaving me hanging while they decide if I must return to work before my body is ready and against doctors orders. Even with my medication that isn't regulated yet.
So I ask for patience in my prayers and I let God know my frustrations and fears. I try to give it all to Him, he can handle everything and bring peace and stability back to my life.
Deciding to be baptized was one of the best decisions I've ever made in my life. I believe it has changed my life forever. Not to say I won't struggle and slip along the path but it is one more tool for me to pick myself back up and learn to carry on and live a good life. It reminds me that no matter what I may face in life, God loves me and is part of me. He created me and will never abandon me even in the hardest of times. I am loved, I am a sinner , and through His love I am forgiven.
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